Wednesday, October 22, 2014


People claim to know what normal is or isn't. They know what it looks like. How the hell is that possible?

Normal doesn't look a certain way, it doesn't feel a certain way (potentially smells a certain way!). 

My heard desires for things I consider normal, a family to love me unconditionally, someone to hold my hand when I am feeling disconnected from the world around me, friends to tell me when I am messing up/ celebrate my successes/ and make me laugh when I am sad, 

Maslow's Hierachy of Needs suggests that we need certain things inorder to survive.

“Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner.”
Lao Tzu

This has never been my way of thinking. Growing up and moving around I rarely considered what other people thought of me. East Coast, MidWest, Pacific Northwest, or So Cal, they all had their trends and what was "cool" over the years, I preferred to march to the beat of my own drummer. Which reminds me of the quote from Walden.

"If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to music which he hears, however measured or far away."
- Henry David Thoreau

This makes me smile every time I read or say this Thoreau quote out loud. I have never wanted to be a drummer but have always made or heard my own music. I do things no one around me can or cares to do. One thing I have noticed recently is that I do what I think I should do instead of listening to my soul and doing what it longs for. Listening deep to our souls isn't easy and honestly I only get hints of what it's trying to tell me every now and again, but I keep listening for the message. I have been a prisoner of others on only 3 occasions that I can think of. First my step father, his immature view on the planet and having run our house like a dictator instilling valuable beliefs (sarcasm here) like "it's my house and if you don't like it there is the door." The second my significant other, believing that people should "act" a certain way instead of just listening to their hearts, I hope this person finds their own voice and stops listening to the parents. Lastly, the loudest, longest lasting, and most important voice has been my own. I have made myself a prisoner of my own thoughts and actions. Believing in my thoughts instead of creating my thoughts and believing in them as a conscious mind. As of October 21, 2014 I choose to manifest my own destiny with positive creative thoughts. I will construct a world the I deserve to be in and that loves me unconditionally. I challenge you to also do the same. 

Friday, September 05, 2014

Listening Seattle

Returning from my Labor Day away in Portland, I was listening to Pandora and an ad for Seattle music comes up. I clicked it and added *visitseattle as a channel. Was it a sign? Did the Universe know I was jonesing for some new music? Both or neither could be true. Either way, I have been enjoying some distinctly "Seattle" music.

Friday, August 29, 2014

Free Music Thursday

Last year while working at a desk job, I would play this song late in the afternoon to keep my motivated and at my desk instead of wandering to someplace more interesting (like playing real frogger with myself on the freeway). I've been told its kinda folksie but I like it. Hope you do too.

where do you find inspiration?

So recently my life has gone through a tremendous change and I am having a hard time comprehending it. One of the constants in my life since birth has been change. I have lived in at least 13 different cities in my life, and probably nearly two dozen addresses which factor at moving every 2 years since birth. For the first time in a long time I have an option of what I want to do with my life and where.

Since I was a kid I wanted to design cars. Recently I attended a graduation at the Art Center and was inspired that it was possible that design in some way cold still be part of my future. The cold hard truth has surfaced that all of my habits will keep me from moving in that direction. Call it laziness, call it depression, call it whatever you would like, it doesn't change the fact that I am limiting myself a beautiful future with my thoughts, my personal beliefs, and my actions. This will be the first step on my journey to success.

The questions that I find myself asking these days are:

  1. what gets me out of bed everyday?
  2. what do I enjoy and look forward to?
  3. what do I do for fun?
  4. what am I passionate about?
  5. who do I want to be when I grow up and how can I get there?

Dear readers, where do you find your inspiration? What ways do you stay inspired to follow your dreams?

Friday, August 22, 2014

My Inspiration

I find most of the world around me very limiting.  There are rules for everything these days, what time to start work, speed limits, stop lights, times restaurants start/stop serving dinner, taxes, ways to dress, the right things to say, standing forward in an elevator, what to include in a resume, which fork to use, and how to make small talk. I believe all these "rules" are meant to control people, keep them in a little box and limit their creativity and impact on the world.

As if external controls aren't enough, but then I see most people believe it when their bosses tell them the skills they suck at they need to get better at (thats bullshit, thats what a team is for) and when people tell them they can't do something they believe it.

I think belief is a magical thing, I have seen someone belief in themselves make magic. When I am feeling the world is too over whelming for me, I seek inspiration in many ways, the easiest way is movies. There are only a few movies I find inspiration true inspiration in.

Back to the basics

I started my day as any other day with intentions and plans of what I would get done, achieve, and finish. And like most days I get taken away, swept up. Most days I journey down a path of misdirection not discovering anything new. But somedays, like today I am I directed to a place that makes me feel like home, a place that I can't seem to find but instantly know when I am there. I want to revel in it, throw off my coverings and embrace the warmth and love. Drink it all in knowing I can't stay here, that I will be called away to soon.

Questions I have never asked myself are - What would it be like to be here forever? What if I wasn't pulled away? Told to leave? What if I could stay in this magical place longer and longer until I was just here? How could I make this happen? Would it be the same on the last hour of my visit as it is my first?

For a long time I have longed to be creative, make something to prove that I exist in the world, that my life has meaning. All my life I have dabbled in creative things. I used to draw cars, assemble models, write stories, and even tried to make a chair at one point (it was a disaster). I never did these things for anyone else, only myself. Is that selfish to enjoy the elation of the creative? Like being stoned or drunk from a few glasses of wine. Whereas, I don't think my creativity will make an impact on the world, is it too much to want it to make even the smallest positive impact on someone else's life? Is that selfish?

When I write I feel the elation. I don't follow proper grammar or any of the other rules of language but yet I still express myself. And isn't that what being creative is?

I have said over and over again, I don't want to be famous I just want the money and to be left alone. Where I currently live I am surrounded by people who want to "make it", write the next big thing, because famous. This is something I have always loathed. I crave freedom, not the type that you get to choose what you work on, but true freedom, that you can choose which city you want to visit next, I want to drink in life. I will say it again I want to drink in life. And that is my wish for my future.

But going back to the reason for this post. While displacing myself into a zone of safety, I lay in bed watching the light filter in, the breeze create a stir of the tree. Embraced by the eternal Eskimo Hug. My mind searching as if being guided for something to consume. I found the movie "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" which I have watched many times. Never with anyone else, such as a movie theatre, but always in the security of my own space. Able to embrace the feelings that were intended either by the writers or the reflection of my own memories. Feelings I am not sure anyone else on this planet has, or can understand.

The movie reminds me of high school as does the song by The Smith, "Asleep" is exactly how I've been feeling as late. No words I can produce sums it up better nor any chord played.

Thursday, August 07, 2014

Update and new writings

I haven't published for a long time, several years specifically. I don't know why I stopped probably because I was writing for others (whom I didn't even know) instead of writing for myself.

Monday, March 01, 2010

Terms of Service on your site

My dog walking directory is set up. I went to the 2nd Annual Dog Fair in San Diego, California. Shared my dog walking ideas with other dog friendly people and received great feed back. One of the pieces of advice was to add zip codes to the dog walking directory for customer to use to search.

Another thing I found after replicating the add a Dog Walker process is that the dog walker information requested either redundant or unnecessary. So I am going through it and adding more dog walker specific information. Dog Walker city, state, and zip code (in a pull down menu to keep the database clean) as well as allowing either a logo or picture but not both (too much information on my server which may slow it down).

Additionally on the bottom of the add a Dog Walker entry form lists a Terms of Service link. I am not a lawyer, and for the most part believe them to be unnecessary. I am sure many of you are going to disagree with me, but I think anyone who has an hourly bill rate at 10x what the average American gets paid is overkill. So I am searching for a quick and simple Terms of Service just to cover myself.

Here is a great Terms of Service article, but more specifically the comments are great. Will keep you posted on what type of terms a dog walker directory needs.

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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Joomla Joomla Everywhere!

I have been developing internet site, dog walking directory, since August 2009 using Joomla as my CMS (Content Management System). Having a background in budgets and finance, and most recently a construction project manager developing a website, particularly in Joomla is new to me.

A friend has been assisting me in using SOBI2, business directory plug in for Joomla, for my dog walking directory. Let's just say that SOBI2 and Joomla isn't plug and play ready. Both Joomla and SOBI2 take some tweaking and playing with and time to get up and running. That said both are great tools to use if you are building a internet directory.

After another couple hours of work yesterday, Kendall has SOBI2 running without my dog walking directory looking busy and so the SEO and navigation works well! So the work for today is to clean up my menus in Joomla and figure out how to customers can pay for advertisement.

Visitors will search the dog walking directory based on city or neighborhood. This feature makes it the most comprehensive dog walking directory on the internet. All other sites only give dog walkers the ability to advertise at the city level. Most people search in their local neighborhoods for a dog walker.

I will keep you posted on Joomla, SOBI2, dog walkers, and finding how to add payments to my site.

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Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Following Bliss

"The Five Secrets You Must Discover Before You Die" is following along with the direction I have been taken the past several months. 

Following Bliss.


Friday, December 05, 2008

My picture of the National Archives is included on Schmap!

I have enjoyed taking pictures for years but never found them useful from a small business or micro business until now.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Went to a Zoomla developers group meeting. Great meeting Zoomla folks are very nice and passionate about what they do. Over 50 ppl at the Zoomla group, there is even a Zoomla social networking component that is free!